I don't think anyone is reading my blog anymore.
But I just want to post this, because I want to remind myself of this love.
This 1year 6months and 24days of relationship was great, was awesome.
I never thought I would ever love someone so dearly that I could give up on my own rules and play with his. I never thought I would ever love someone so dearly that I could do anything just because I want to be with him.
I don't know if he will ever come back to me, neither do I know will he ever miss me. I don't know if he will ever look back and think of all the time we spent together. I don't think if he will ever have any flashback of us.
But I wanna thank God for letting him enter my life. Leaving the best memories for nearly 19 months of my life. I wanna thank God for giving me, him, as my 18th year old birthday present. Letting me feel loved all these while. I wanna thank God for putting us thru all the difficulties and we became stronger.
I know, he might not be the best guy on earth. Neither is he treating me like how a boyfriend should treat his girl. He is not the sweetest guy I've ever met, neither is he the guy who I thought I would love these much.
After all the incidents that happened, we grew a little stronger.
I know, it's my fault for being too close with a guy whom is trying to woo me. And keep contacting him when I know you don't like it. You told me about it, and because of it, we almost broke up. I'm sorry for letting such things happened and create that crack in between us. What hurts you the most is when you're in for 3 weeks, I get so affected when he say he wanna break friendship, and what's worst is when I'm the first one who contacted him. We have quarreled a lot of times because of him, and one day, I decided not to talk to him anymore. Because I no longer want him to be the reason for us to quarrel.
You'd your revenge, and that was one think I never thought I could ever forgive! But because it's you, I forgave and let it past as time passes by. If I never love you so dearly, I would have left at that point of time, and not tell you that I will forgive you because it's over. Trust me, a lot of girls would have left when you did that, but I stayed.
These are the biggest two issues of our love. Other that, was because of my family. Because they strongly disapprove this love. But we still managed to pull it off for 19 months, and I'm glad that you never let go of me, even when you find it irritating. We held stronger after every quarrel, and came off stronger. Even though in your mouth, you keep mentioning about breaking up, but you never did. Maybe because I will always find ways to actually mend that.
After all, thank you Kiefer Yew Qi Hao, for that 1 year 6 months and 24 days staying in my life and make a big difference. This love, will always be remembered. Just hope you'll be happier without me, and just for you to know, if you ever need someone, my phone is still available for you to call. :)
Someone who will always love you...
POSTED BY RuiJia. ON Wednesday, 15 May 2013 @ 14:51