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If the truth was told instead of a lie,
then the pain would go away sooner and not hurt as much.


I'm RuiJia and I call myself Jessica / J.

I'm a alien, i dont look strange but i behave strange .
I love to take photographs cause they're artistic, and romantic too.
I eat bananas, i drink alcohol, i dance on the dancefloor. IM ROMANTIC FOR SURE . C:
Scream your words,


Say goodbye,

Alicia. Bevin. Byron. Charmaine. ChewYen. CherylS. CherylT. DesmondPWL. EileenN. ElaineC. Evelyn. Eunice. Fion. Joanna. Joel. JunHui. Gavin. Gayathiri. GuanLiang. Hazel. Kenny. Luana. LiLing. MinMin. Monique. Noah. RaymondT. RonaldW. Seraphina. Shermeen. ShirleyP. Seri. SiewPing. SinEe. SiYing. Susanna. QiWei. WeiTing. XueFang. YaoChong. YunQi. ZhengYang.

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Out out out!
Date: Wednesday, December 23, 2009
Blogged @ 11:25 AM - Click and up you go .

Currently in SGH with mummy. Waiting for our turn for blood test. Well, have been busy doing house chores, need to pack things up as new year is around the corner. Must get everything done before new year :)

Am going to meet Jimmy tomorrow to celebrate christmas together :) he still owe me a meal, might be watching movie tomorrow, cause I've got a birthday treat. And it's one for one. So I'll pay half of his ticket then :)

Meeting my lovely hikes for christmas celebration. Wanna discuss with W but she didn't reply my message! Angry with her! She better reply me! W if you're reading my blog, please reply my message!

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Will be staying home and rot for another day :) Jimmy will not be free tomorrow as he'll be working. Wanted to find people to go out with me, but it's so last minute. Who will be free and go out with me? Unless someone ask me out :)

When can I fly out again? Fly out of this place and be free? I've settle the things, and now who should I approach? I don't want to stay at home on the eve! Who would be free for me, just a day? I've made up my mind, I shall spend it with mummy. But if you need someone to go out with, give me a call!

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Nights of thinking,
Date: Tuesday, December 22, 2009
Blogged @ 8:06 PM - Click and up you go .

After nights of thinking, I've made a choice. I've no idea whether I've made a right choice or not, but I've made it. He'd made it very clear to me, that's why I made this decision. I really don't wish it to happen like this, but maybe that should be how it ends.

If there is still fate in us, we'll still be like how we use to be. Maybe it's fate that makes us meet, maybe it's fate to make us leave too. I know it's not the end yet, it's only a beginning, beginning of everything. We're back to square one again. Let us introduce ourselves to each other again :)

Yesterday shall be the last night I'll be washing my face with tears. Although I'm still suffering from insomnia, but at least, I don't have to shed a single tears before I sleep. Although my mind is still thinking, but I don't have to worry that much.

I realised things get changed in time, I finally know why xxx told me that. Luckily I didn't really lose a lot. All I lose is my sleep, my concentration, my mind, and my heart. Now I've regain them back to me, now that they're back to me, I realised they grew stronger. He help to strengthen my weakness, he helps me to make them strong. But also thanks to him, a period of weakness came to me. Shed tears every night, and wasting my night finding solutions.

Thanks for the things he gave which I can't get it from others. Thanks for spending time watching movies with me. Thanks for making me smile with your silly acts. Lastly, I really have to thank him for making my weakness to grow so strong :)

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Weather = my feeling,
Date: Monday, December 21, 2009
Blogged @ 10:58 PM - Click and up you go .

Time check : 11.05pm

Its raining now, and it seems as though its reflecting my feeling, my mood. I guess someday, this feeling will just fade away. Someday, I'm not going to feel so horrible anymore. Someday, everything will change. And someday, I'll never going to face you.

When will this day come, I really don't know? Is it tomorrow or is it just the very next minute? I'm tired of this kind of life, tired of being torturing. When can all this stop? Its really very heart breaking. Just hope when I wake up tomorrow, everything will end :)

Can someone just slap me and wake my mind up. No point talking all those theories to me, cause it don't help. I told myself to give up, but something just keeps me holding on to it. What's wrong with me? I must be crazy man! Why am I so crazy over this retarded?

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Tell me how,
Date: Sunday, December 20, 2009
Blogged @ 7:23 PM - Click and up you go .

After a night chatting with Jimmy, he drill some sense into me.
He is a good example for me, he is in a same situation as me too :)
He told me what to do, he thought me how to think.
Thanks to him, I'm feeling better now.
I guess I'll not going to think that much.
I've been suffering from insomnia, I can't sleep unless I've finish thinking.
The problem came to me all night, and I've not think of a solution yet!
Can some one save me out?
Can some one pull me out?
Will he be the one?
Well, all I can say is to let time, fate and nature to decide :>

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Weekend Fever,
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Blogged @ 5:21 PM - Click and up you go .

Friday - 19/12/09

Woke up and get prepared to go school at 2pm. Was so nervous in my heart, yet I keep telling my friends that I want faster get results and get home to sleep. Its my turn to get my results, sat down on the chair in front of Ms. Tan, she hand me my result slip. Count the marks over and over again, and I confirm the results is fourteen, yes 14!

Headed home with Best (Noah), and he wait for me while I change. Trained down to Ps, and I wait for him to get changed. Then off we went to arcade for Jubeat session, actually wanted to ask Hub (HuiLi) But she says she is tired, so she didn't follow us. Best went off first as he needs to rush off to his work place, while I continue to play. Leave the arcade around 5.30pm, and headed home.

Saturday - 20/12/09

Breakfast with family at Chinatown. Get myself a pair of flats, and a pair of heels. Mum paid for the flats and my brother paid half of my heels :) Love them to the max! Walk around and trained home :)

Late afternoon, bus down to Suntec to meet Best, and friends (Jax, Justin, Sebastian, Leon, Bryan, Ben and An Kang) Wait for them till they finish their games, Raycity. We walked over to Bugis and to Iluma. Hanged there for almost an hour just for Best. Then went to eat wanton noodle for dinner. Looked at the others eat while I rot there.

After dinner, crossed over to Junction and down to arcade for Jubeat session. Stayed in the arcade for 2 solid hours, I can say going to arcade is really a waste of time :B But get to play games, so its worth it :/ After Jubeat, walked over to Bugis Street as S wants to get his Iphone a new cover :) Told him to get at Suntec, he don't want. Wasted ten minutes there, waiting for him. Laughs! I got so pissed when they're talking about what transport to take home, so I just walk away ALONE. Laughs! A girl walk home alone, was great :) Lucky JosephT was free, so ask him to chat with me till I reach home :B How sweet is he! Laughs!

Homed > Bathe > Online to discuss about the chalet games with Monique :) Webcam with J too, he says I've slim down :B Happy! Offline > Lay on the bed > Text with Jimmy about his r/s life and mine. Text with him till 3am, and I fall asleep.

Sunday - 20/12/09

Stay at home to rot for the whole day.

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