Dear you,

I know you'll read this post someday. Let me just post the whole process down, like how I used to blog everything about me and him in the past :)

I am sure that if others know about this news, they'll get the shock out of their life. But what I know was, no matter what, they won't change my mind for you. I know my romance record was never good, and I'm doing reflections on them already. I've moved on from him, and now Im into you.

I never regret for letting go of any relationships, cause I believe they end for a reason. These reasons might be hurtful, but I have to face the fact that they are gone. All those are past, and you're going to be the present tense.

I cannot say how far we can go, but Im sure that as long as we didn't have our heart changed, we will go very very very very very far. To the extend that we never thought of. All I can say is, if you want this to go extreme far, you got to hold me tight. Cause my heart used to be moved easily, Im not sure about now, cause I've not experiencing it for a long time.

This 1year 10months of singlehood for me is not easy. Cause from my history book, I don't go single for this long.

Sweetie, I don't really care about your past. Cause after all, it's past, it's over. What I want to care about, it's your now and future. Or I should say, all I want to care about are US NOW AND OUR FUTURE!

Sweetie, since you said that promises aren't meant to be broken, then promise me that you won't repeat your mistakes again. Promise me that you'll start afresh, and never go back in. I don't want to see you going in, don't want to see you being caught.

I told you I'm scared, YES I STILL AM. I'm scared that one day, all these sweetness will be gone. I'm scared that one day, you'll realised that you don't love me at all, cause it's just a crush. I'm scared that one day, you'll leave me like how they used to left me alone. I'm scared that one day, some how, I'm left to face everything alone.

I'm tired of making myself happy, I'm tired of letting go, I'm tired of facing the fact that you'll leave one day. Yes, I know, LOVE is nothing to be afraid about. But when you got hurt by it again and again, you'll slowly close your door to it.

Now, my door towards love is closed, you've arrived at the doorstep. Trying your best to break through, trying your best to find the key to it. You have now found the key, trying to unlock, but there'll still be barrier in front.

This heart is easily opened, but not easy to get. It's easily broken, but not easy to heal. I've healed them all by myself. I hope you don't mind about how my heart looks like, cause it's not in a whole any more. I tried to fixed them, but it's never gonna be perfect any more. Some bits and pieces are gone, when I got hurt each time. I hope someone could use their love and find me those pieces that are lost.

Well sweetie, just note that, no matter what, I'm here! I really am! ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

♥,

RJ™©