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| Are we still friends? |
Ever since the start of poly life, I thought I'll have a group of good friends.
This group of friends, accompanied me along the way through my poly year 1. We've so much fun, so much laughter, so much joy. But things just turn out to be so i-don't-know-what-to-say. Such awkward relation.
I missed how we used to have endless topics, I missed how we study together, I missed how me and my darling girls chat about weird topics while we are having meals, I missed how we always go toilet together, I missed how we crapped during the chalet, I missed the times we had together.
Things changes so dramatically in two days. And I've no idea what's wrong. When I prompt the question, everybody says nothing wrong. But if there's nothing wrong, then WHY AREN'T WE TALKING? Then why don't we hang out together any more? Then why do you guys treat me like I'm invisible?
Is it because of I'm together with Kiefer? Is it because I've done anything wrong to you guys? Is it because I said something wrong which hurt you guys?
I tried so hard to plan events for birthdays/chalet and stuffs. I planned for Jieqin's and Yueyi's birthday, I ran to places with Joanne to get the cake. I planned for the chalet, get those food, help to set up fire, cook food, finish the food. But still, I got to thank Dalton and Bingxun for helping out. I helped to think what's the most practical present to get for Joanne's birthday. I helped to get the present first, fork out the money first, collect the present. AND WHAT I GET IN RETURN?
BEING IGNORED BY YOU GUYS!
COME ON la, if you guys are not happy with me, just freaking come and tell me. Hide behind for what? NOT HAPPY JUST SAY, NO NEED HIDE! AND DON'T COME AND TELL ME NOTHING'S WRONG WHEN IT'S PRETTY OBVIOUS THAT YOU GUYS DON'T WISH TO TALK TO ME!
If you guys treat me as friends, then why didn't you guys talk to me? I tried to make the first move, but the way you guys react turns me off! And don't mind me saying this la, DON'T WANNA BE FRIENDS, JUST F*CKING TELL ME LA, WHAT'S THE POINT OF KEEPING IT TO YOURSELF? AS IF LIKE I CAN READ YOUR F*CKING MIND -.- GIVE IN SO MUCH ALSO NO USE.
Let me tell you this, I won't give a damn to you guys any more! I'll treat you guys just like how you guys treat me. If any one of you treat me nice, I'll treat you nice too. IF you guys treat me mean, then don't blame me for doing mean things to you! :)
"We don’t remember days; we remember moments."
But now, all these memories will be gone, just like how you guys are gone in my life.
♥,
Rj
